Spring Break!

Some schools have already taken time off for Spring/Easter but my school hasn't, yet. However on friday evening spring break begins! Here, We, Go!

Spring break is ALL about the parties! Many of my friends, including Payton, are going to Florida for break. And what am I doing? I'll be here, playing video games, watching some TV, and painting sets. I'll probably babysit for a little bit if I'm lucky.

I do get to be a model in my friend's photoshoot though, but that's only if the weather stops being so cold. I don't want to get stuck in a short sleeveless dress with no shoes or jacket in the freezing cold again. I've done it once, and it was not pleasant

When school coes back into session I will get to hear all of the wonderful stories of beach parties, or shopping sprees, or "Oh my Gosh Kellie, you should have seen the guys there!" It happens every year.

Usually I just make up a story. The one I used last year was, let me remember it...Oh yeah! I went on a cruise and a dolphin jumped right over my head, then when we landed I slipped off the dock and almost got eatten by a SHARK!

I know, I'm hilarious right. Ha.

Sometimes I just get so annoyed with other people. I want to be happy for them, and I am, and they have a right to talk about their spring break as much as they like. I just get jealous sometimes. I have this whole list of things I want to do, my mini bucket list.

I've only marked one thing off, that was flying a plane. Yeah, I flew it for five minutes, and the real pilot wouldn't even let me do and barrel rolls or anything. :(

So, anyways! I just wanted to say that I hope everyone out there had/has/is having a good spring break. If you're stuck at home, you're not the only one. Besides, that's what the internet and TV is for, to keep you from being bored.

From my corner to your heart, K.

Pay has words to share...

Sadly I've been really down today. Um, my friend Payton's mother passed away last weekend. Here we go.

Recently it's been a crying-fest at Pay's house. As well it should be. Losing someone as important as your mother is very difficult. Pay is only fifteen, and in all honesty she shouldn't have to deal with this.

Other friends and I have been trying to make her feel a little bit better, with no preveil. I wish I could give tips on how to let go, but it all depends on the person and you. I think that friends help. We're all going to go to the funeral to be there for Pay. It's the least we can do.

Payton's dad isn't much better.

He was never there when she needed him. That's what's most hard about this for her...

My dad doesn't even care. He stood there like a good ex-husband. But I knew, it was all fake. He didn't shed a tear, or hold me. No, it was K, Brit and Sarah who took care of me. Thanks a lot pops. I doubt you even liked Mom. I want to say Thank You to Kellie, Sarah, and Brittney you guys are amazing. I know that I'm in a really sucky mood, but you guys understand. You brought me junkfood even though I'm supossed to be on a diet. You know what really sucks? That we didn't really see it coming. I just thought she was sick again. She'd been sick for so long. I guess she didn't want me to know. She didn't want me to worry about her. I should have known though, She was my mom for crying out loud. I should have known, but I didn't....

Mommy, I'm sorry. I know you wouldn't want me like this, and I'll try to get better. I miss you, stay lovely...-Payton-

 

 

 

 

I didn't know she was going to do that, but it's fine. And I will let my friends monopolize my page whenever they need to. Sometimes, you just need to get things off your chest. 

 

I love my friends, and I'd do anything for them. I hope that your friendships are the same way. Hopefully nothing else will happen, and my next post will be happy and helpful again.

 

From my corner to your heart, K.

Ending a Relationship... :'(

So, my friend Sammie is having some difficulty with a friendship. She used to be friends with this girl, Emma, but now everything that Emma does just gets on Sammie's nerves. So, because of Sammie, I'm going to talk about relationships mainly friends, but this could also work for significant others too. Here, we, go.

First I need to say something, I don't believe in crushing friendships forever. Because once a relationship is broken, it can never truely be crack free, no matter how much glue you use. But I do believe in distance.

Distance is a powerful thing, it truely is. I once roomed with two of my now dearest friends (Anna and Celsy) at a camp, with the camp started I wasn't too sure about them. Yeah, I liked them, but we weren't exactly friends. After living side by side with them though, now they're some of my closest confidantes.

The same thing can be said true with being apart from someone. I had this bestfriend, we were practically twins. I only see her every other weekend now, and we are slowly drifting apart. It hurts sometimes, but I know that she'll still always be my 'sister'.

Change is good sometimes, you just have to get past the rough parts before you can easily coast through.

Now, on to Sammie's problem with Emma!

So, Miss Samantha my tips to you are this...distance yourself from Emma. Don't give her the cold shoulder, but if she starts to bug you (and I hate typing this, but...) you should POLITELY excuse yourself.

If even in those brief meetings you can't stand the sight of her, or the sound of her voice, then I think it's time to end it. This is the worst case senario, if you can avoid it, then please, don't break it off with her. Becasue like I said, relationships never completely heal.

If you do have to end it though, don't be mean about. Because that could lead to hate, and hate is an ugly emotion. Don't plan out what you'd say, because then you'll start sounding like a hallmark movie. Just, speak through the heart, and hope that it all goes well. (I guess I'm the one sounding like a hallmark movie)

I'm sorry that I don't have any examples to give, but I've only had to break off a friendship once, and that was because she betrayed me. And, I'm not pround of how I acted. I treated my former-friend like garbage, pretending not to see or hear her, ignoring her calls, making sure not to cross paths in the hallway. Don't do what I did.

If possible, let your relationships take care of themselves, most will slowly dissolve (like 'sissy' and I) Others you won't expect to happen (Like with Anna and Celsey.)

My final advise is this, don't worry about. Let life run its course, if people fade then people fade. If you share your whole life story with your two roommates at camps, then you share your whole life story with your two newest friends. You just have to roll with the punches, and hope for the best.

Sorry if this doesn't help, but I hope it does. Like I said, this could also be true for a boy/girlfriend relationship, even a parent/child relationship.

From my corner to your heart, K.

Table Topics Fun Time!

I was going to talk about a really heavy topic, but then I thought to myself, "K, do you really want to be all serious on your day off of practice?" The answer is no. I'll save the heavy stuff for later, for now, we're going to play a little Table Topics! Here. We. Go.

(This guy really creeps me out.)

For those of you that don't know, Table Topics is a game. You read off a question then you go around the table and everyone answers. Yeah, I know it doesn't sound like that much fun. Well you know what? This is my page and I'll do as I want, so we're gonna play Table Topics. Let's Go!

Question One: What did you get into trouble for the most when you were young?
Answer: Well, I always picked on the dogs. Oh, and I never had a 'clean' plate at dinner.

Question Two: Would you rather spend a week in jail or serve two years of community service?
Answer: This is going to sound bad, but I've always wondered what jail was like, so I'd be locked away.

Question Three: What five foods do you wish were banished from the earth?
Answer: Umm...I'd have to say Broccoli, Peas, Star Fruit, Hummus! and...Mushrooms.

Question Four: Are you more likely to be guilty of gluttony, lust, rage, jealousy, sloth, greed or pride?
Answer: I'd have to say Pride. That's one of the worst.

Final Question: What Halloween costumes do you remember?
Final Answer: There are sooo many. Hmm, okay. I was about five or six my grandmother made me this cheerleading costume for Hallow's Eve. And oh my gosh, was it a disaster. It was red and white with a little bit of black in it. My hair, which was long at the time, was pulled sloppily into two pigtails, and I was not happy about it. I looked like the cheerleader from Hell.



Thanks for reading, even if you didn't, the next post will probably be much more serious than this was, but hopefully it'll make you think.

From my corner to your heart, K.

Half-Days.

Here. We. Go.

Half-days are the dumbest thing that schools ever came up with. I know why they halve only four hour days, to get money from the state, but still!

First of all, teachers don't have enough time for an actual lesson, so nearly every class is a study hall. Second, no one wants to give homework because the likelyhood of it getting done are slim to none. Thirdly, by the end of those painstakingly dull hours everyone is starving and grumpy. Because everyone wants to go out to B-dubs (Buffalo Wild Wings) or Cherry Berry (A frozen yoguart place) the parking lot is a nightmare to get out of!

What really sucks is that my little cousin's school doesn't get out for another half hour, and I have to pick him up. So I'm past hungry, and all I want to do is get home, eat, and enjoy the day.

Gosh, I like half-days, don't get me wrong. Any time away from school is time well spent, but it's just a pain sometimes.

From my corner to your heart, K.

Values?

In case anyone is wondering, I did make it into the musical. I get to be a part of the wonderful people that make up the choir ensemble! Onto other news, recently in my sociology class we did this activity that delt with values. Here, we, go.

Everyone in class had to put  the twenty values (above) in order of most to least important. I've desided to share my countdown with you. 1 is most important and 20 is less important to me. Remember, that I think all of them are important, but if I had to order them...

20 Values all in a row!

 

1.  Self-Control 
2.  Dependable
3.  Honest
4.  Loyal
5.  Mature
6.  Supportive
7.  Caring
8.  Courageous
9.  Competent
10.  Ambitious
11.  Forward-looking
12.  Fair-minded
13.  Determinded
14.  Broad-minded
15.  Independent
16.  Intelligent
17.  Cooperative
18.  Straightforward
19.  Inspiring
20.  Imaginative

If I could have added more to the list I would have pushed them all down one and made Love numer 2. So, why did I put Self-Control as my number one? If you can't control yourself then what can you control? And who is controlling your life then? Are there people with too much self-control? Yes, but it's better to have too much and none at all.

As for why I put 20 as imaginative, it's not because I think that imagination is stupid. It's just when I look at the big picture all of the values at 1-19 just seem a little more important. And I'm not meaning that to sound mean, that's just the way my value system works.

Keep in mind that it took me a while to come up with this order, and that in all honesty a lot of things would have tied if that were possible.

From my corner to your heart, K.
(P.S. Probably won't be writing constantly like I wanted to be doing because of musical practice.)

Nervous? Here's some tips.

So, in a few hours I will be standing in an auditorium with people staring at me. I will be judged on how well my dancing abilities are, and how well I can sing. The judges will stare at me, the only one on stage, and they will silently critique me. Gosh, and I nervous...here, we, go.

I'm planning on trying out for my school's play, West Side Story. Let me give you a little back ground. The last time I sang in front of someone was five years ago, the last time I preformed was four years ago, the last time I danced in front of people, never.

Not entirely sure why I let my friend rope me into this, but it happened and now I have to follow it through. Nervousness is a dangerous place of thought. I get nervous all the time, before band concerts, when marching at a football game, when giving speeches or presentations, even when simply talking to adults. But I get the most nervous when I have to sing.

People tell me I have a good voice, but I have a trust issue so I don't believe them. I've slowly found a way to cope with this nervousness, and I've decided to share it with the internet. So, here ya' go internet.

12 Ways to Become Less Nervous.

 

1. Listen to music to distance yourself.
2. Go over everything in your head.
3. Picture yourself making every mistake possible, from a loose shoe tie to a cataclysmic explosion, and figure out how to prevent it.
4. Exercising is pretty much the key to everything.
5. Watch a comedy, if time allows.
6. Tell yourself that you have something to prove.
7. Do something else. I like to do some ASL before speeches.
8. Look your best. If you look good you'll feel good.
9. Don't eat junk food, it'll just make your nerves worse.
10. Say the alphabet backwards, it'll give your mind something else to do. If you can easily say your ZYX's then count backwards from fifty.
11. Take a deep breath and try to shake it off. If you know Sharpay from High School Musical, do what she does with the brrr thing. (That made a lot of sense...)
12. Finally, say that you'll do just fine. Because you will. Remember that you'll do great.

 

None of these are sure fire ways to calm your nerves, but I hope they help even if it's just a little.

 Good wishes in whatever you do in your life, and wish me luck.

 

From my corner to your heart, K.